
Many thanks to Debbie Gooter for the my interview and feature on her blog Etsy Featured Artist- check it out!!




Life has felt really strange lately- honestly I have had a rough couple of weeks- I have had one foot in my work life and another in my life as an artist- quite honestly it has taken a toll on me- transitioning into a new job, working on art, trying to catch up with stuff, maintaining a personal life, keeping up my work-out routine...it feels like too much at times. I have had a number of “melt downs” the latest being on Friday when I locked myself out of the house as I was getting ready for work in the morning. I completely FREAKEd out and when that happens I typically call my mom- so while I was waiting 2 hours for my husband to come home to let me in I called my mom and lost it- she always gives good advice and she talked me down and ended our conversation by telling me to try not “pull the whole list out” which is what happens when I melt down- the whole list comes out with everything that feels wrong in my world. Unfortunately my list was already out and has been out for the last two weeks and quite honestly it is bringing me down! I have spent far too many hours questioning, aching and feeling overwhelmed and after a couple of hours shedding tears on friday I decided this had to end. I don't have a lot of answers right now but I do know that I have lots to be thankful for and like I have always done in times of struggle- I return to my core and I let myself get lost in creating and while I had lots of projects to work on this weekend I found time to get my hands dirty and spent time painting big (my fave!) and painting for the mere purpose of the process and it actually made me feel better :) Now it is Monday and I am not sure if the 2 hour cry on Friday made me feel better or if I just needed to reach the bottom of my internal struggle and just give up on thinking so much and embrace the now. 



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Just a tiny sneak peak to share of a project I just finished for the fall issue of Quilting Arts!




I have been working all weekend- jumping from one project to another and working on some really neat purses that will be part of a "green" gallery exhibition in September- more info to come! I think life has caught up with me- between starting a new job, family visiting and then all the stuff that has come up with my book and my creative life...I'm exhausted and there is no end any time soon! My days are full, my evenings are full and brain is about to over flow! Lately I have found myself questioning if I made the right decisions in the path that I am on, trying to make the switch from fine artist into the crafting world has really meant putting myself out there, hoping my creative concepts will translate, hoping people will understand my book (so far I am still skeptical about this one due to yet another bad review!) chasing my creative dreams while still working a day job so that we can pay the bills. Sometimes it seems like life would be easier if I didn't have this crazy desire to paint and create- but it is unstoppable and I LOVE the process of making art so much that it makes my questions, my exhaustion, the bad reviews all seem like nothing compared the the pure JOY I get from sitting in my studio for hours painting- this much I know is true.
I am finally back to my normal self- this weekend took it of me but in a really good way. It was so positive and uplifting to have people enjoying working with paint, getting to meet so many kind and creative souls and finding all sorts of new inspiration was all really wonderful...but....it is really difficult for me to jump back and forth between the many hats that I wear– coming back to work on Monday, trying to find energy to be positive and hardworking with different things and then have family staying at our house was hard! And last night I crashed– literally–and fell asleep at 8pm on the couch and then somehow drug myself to bed. I am finally energized and back in the swing of things and ready to jump back into the the juggling act that is my life. I have so many creative projects to accomplish and after the weekend in Long Beach I am so inspired to work with canvas in different and creative ways. 