Sunday, November 16, 2008

You Haven't Lived as an Artist...

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I have this theory that you haven't lived as an artist until you have struggled with rejection - over and over again. Don't get me wrong it is wonderful to be validated, accepted, and have success in creativity (maybe because I am a GenXer) but there is something profound and inspiring about feeling pushed down, rejected and discouraged... and yes I said inspiring!
So many ground breaking artists struggled with their careers but went on creating anyway...Caravaggio's works were rejected and criticized by the church because of their subject-matter. Renoir was laughed at and rejected not only by the public but by his own fellow artists and continued to paint. During the beginning of Impressionism many of the Impressionists like Monet and Pisassaro struggled to find buyers for their works, and many of them lived hand-to-mouth!! Van Gogh only sold one painting during his short life, was tortured by his craft but went on learning and making art- And the list goes on and on and includes musicians, writers, poets and actors that have been rejected or challenged by their audience and their craft- it is the common factor in all of our experiences! I have recently had a handful of rejections (why else would I be blogging about this?!?!?) honestly- for every AMAZING opportunity that has come my way- I have had 10 rejections and struggles to get to that point. It takes a toll- it challenges your dreams, it makes you feel insecure, angry, it causes questioning and often breeds discouragement. I have spent the weekend thinking about some recent set backs, thinking about what it means to me to be an artist and why I have been traveling this path my whole life- reflecting on being a little girl, knowing that becoming an artist was what I wanted, deciding to pursue drawing and painting which meant years of difficult critiques by art teachers, rejections of proposals, bad feedback from gallery shows, craft and art fairs that produced little or no money and taking on a lifestyle where I would sacrifice "normal' job offers in the name of pursuing this strange dream. I am not typically the type of person to get too introspective, I don't fall into a dark place, I don't put on some dreamy or whimsical music and look inside myself...in fact it is just the opposite- First I cry (and the tears are usually angry ones!) I crank up some loud rebellious tunes, I get fired up, I break some of the rules I learned in college art classes-like forgetting about form and color theory, I draw on the experiences of all those artists through history that fought hard for their success, I remember that being creative means sometimes you fail- but at least it's in the name of passion. I then make a HUGE mess in my studio (that involves splattered paint of course) and I get back to basics - my heart tells me to make art and that is what I do- fearlessly. I remember that the reward of being true and faithful to being an artist is worth the moments of rejection.


For those out there that are pursuing a creative path, that struggle with artistic goals, that want it so bad they can taste it (the sour and the sweet)....don't ever give up, don't ever compromise your style or your process or your goals, always be you. In the words of my my most favorite artist- Bob Dylan - When you feel in your gut what you are and then dynamically pursue it - don't back down and don't give up - then you're going to mystify a lot of folks.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

A Big Mess!


How in the world did this happen?!?!?!? My studio is a terrible mess and for some reason I have not had any motivation to clean it up. 

All week long I have been jumping from one project to another and instead of organizing I decided just to clear a space and plop myself down in the middle of it all....which works just fine for me cause I work on the floor anyway!



But thankfully I have been very productive, cause thats all that matters...right?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

This Guy...


This guy is a veteran? Looking at my husband today it is hard to guess that he served in the military - he has long hair, lots of facial hair, very liberal and is in fact celebrating today by surfing!! But yes, my hubby served this country for five years- his formative years actually as Search and Rescue in the Navy- he jumped out of helicopters, swam a lot, traveled the world, learned leadership skills, discipline, went a little wild and did all kinds of things that I will never understand or relate to. While he is a VERY different person today at 32 than when he enlisted at 18, there is something that will never change and that is how profound the experience of serving this country was for him. I am not typically very vocal about my patriotism (perhaps I need to work on this?) but today I feel like I must say thank you to my husband and the all the others who made the decision to serve their country. My gratitude.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Hope Lives Here


 I am proud to share a little piece of my joy. 

A recent painting inspired by this amazing time, 

made into art prints mounted on gallery blocks.

from my heart to yours!

Check out etsy!



Friday, November 07, 2008

A Little Peace...


I have jumped back into my studio working on all kinds of fun stuff for the holidays and more!  

The first that I want to share is my new little canvas peace ornaments made from painted canvas (of course!)

$5.00 each or 4 for $15.00
Select your color or let me pick for you!

Visit my etsy shop!

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Shop Updates!



Check out my etsy shop for new updates- wallets and totes!

And the Winner Is......

Chrissie Grace you are the winner of the Big Dreams graffiti bag!!!!!!
I will touch base with you to get your info!!

Stay tuned for another give away next Monday!!


Monday, November 03, 2008

Big Dreams Graffiti Bag- GIVE AWAY!!


So I have been procrastinating about doing a give away on my blog- not enough time, what if nobody comments, blah, blah, blah!! But I am proud to say that I have a nice inventory of stuff built up for the holidays and more to come and thought it would be a perfect time to give something away!  This bag is one of my favorites- made to look similar to the bag on the front of Canvas Remix it is full of my favorite little mantras (that I seem to repeat over and over to myself all day long!!) like Always Be You and Dream Big Dreams as well as lots of graffiti and messy paint!

So heres the deal- leave me a comment letting me know what your big dream is and by the end of the day tomorrow- I will draw a name and the bag will be yours- yipeee!!!

Sunday, November 02, 2008

New Work

Just a little preview of a series that I am working on that will soon be turned into small prints for sale in my etsy shop!

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Walk Slow

Coming back home and to real life after my adventures in the Pacific Northwest has been a little strange...I am back to work which means I am back to living my double life- remaining professional and appropriate by day and making a mess and growing a creative business by night- I feel like Clark Kent and Superman sometimes!!! Anyway, since I got back I have been battling a chest cold which hit me on the last leg of my trip- I stayed home yesterday and made myself relax in front of the tv- sometimes it is good to veg out right?!?!

Thanks to my hubby I  got out for a little vitamin D in the evening when he suggested we go for a little outing and walk along the waterfront of San Diego to watch the sunset- kinda a tradition for us when we get back from a trip.  We took our time and strolled along the water looking at all the boats in the marina, appreciating the sun on the water and lovely city that we live- we walked slow- something he is better at than I am! I am trying so hard to be happy and appreciate the now and walking a little slower toward my goals instead of always wanting more and faster. Thankfully I have a great guy by my side who relishes in the present and loves taking his time to appreciate everything along the way- a perfect balance that I am learning to welcome with each experience that comes my way! Now is it back to studio to create some new stuff- stay tuned for a give away, new work and lots of inspiration!!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

To ArtFiberFest With LoVe...

I am now back to San Diego, back to our little home, back to my lonely husband, back to my day job, back to more creative projects....and despite catching a cold, I am feeling unusually refreshed, empowered and full of hope. A few years ago I decided to explore a different path with my art- After teaching art workshops for college students I discovered a love for sharing my knowledge, my crazy creative process and myself with others...(which goes against my typically shy and quiet nature) I found a new confidence that came with interacting and sharing my passion-where there was no fear, no insecurity only the feeling of a fit. Teaching became my goal and I have been rewriting my journey as an artist ever since. After teaching lots of smaller classes Teesha took a chance on me by accepting my proposal to teach at ArtFiberFest- here I was a fine artist and painter with an idea to teach painting and how to cut up canvas paintings up and sew them into something new at a fiber venue! I have to share with all of you out there how much is meant to be embraced and how wonderful it was to have the opportunity to share my process with you. Ruth wrote on her blog that teaching for her is intoxicating and I completely agree!!! It was magical watching everyone find their voice in each of their classes and in each of their projects. It was inspiring to see so many people with different backgrounds and experiences come together and bond over the one thing we all have in common and that is an uncontrollable desire to create and connect with others who create. To top off my experience I made the trip alone- which was not the original plan- The plan was to have my husband join me for a little R&R and assist me with all my stuff- which all went down the tube when he was called into work and couldn’t make it. It is funny, I used to do everything by myself with no fear but being settled and married I have learned to depend on him to catch and assist me when I am nervous or afraid. This was not an option this time and it is funny because making the trip out to Port Townsend, with a car load of stuff, not knowing anyone (except Ruth) and jumping into my first retreat teaching experience felt like a big deal to me and I have to be honest-I didn’t want to do it alone!!! But in this new little adventure, I found a piece of myself that I lost a long time ago...don’t get me wrong my hubby is actually a feminist and supports anything I do but being married sometimes your lose yourself a bit and it is easy to forget how empowering it is to conquer something on your own. Being alone through this whole trip brought me more confidence, courage and hope that the things that I am working for (no matter how big) are attainable even by myself!! The whole experience was unique and special and I have to thank Teesha and Tracy and Tiphoni for creating a venue for wonderful things to happen! It brought a new confidence, a renewal, an opportunity to find myself in a different way. I look forward to more time spent teaching and connecting with more creative people out there- everyone of you inspire me!!!

Monday, October 27, 2008

ArtFiberFest Highlights and Shouts

It is Tuesday and I am FINALLY relaxing at home (parent's house on the Oregon Coast). I have been taking time to organize all of my thoughts and pictures from ArtFiberFest to share on my blog. I must say that I had such a wonderful time having the opportunity to teach at a fiber venue was like a dream come true for me because it means that I was able to make the transition from a fine artist and painter into fiber territory- love it! The best part was meeting so many wonderful, creative and open people. I spend so much of my creative time either alone or often with people who are just not like minded- so to get to spend 5 days with individuals who love the same thing was so nice and a comfort to me!

Highlights and Shout OuTs- in No Particular Order!!!

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All of my students being SOOOOOOOOOO open to my "no rules" rule and "limited direction" style of teaching.

***Watching Heather create a super cool graffiti purse complete with and ball and chain strap- LOVE IT!!!

***Getting to meet the lovely and amazing Liz- love her beautiful blog and all of her creations are ALL gorgeous eye candy!

***Watching Gail let go and have fun with paint...and even make a mess-

*** Exploring Downtown Port Townsend

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Beach combing by myself in the wee hours of the morning.


***watching everyone go wild with spray paint and stencils
***watching the the yellow leaves fall from the trees

***Seeing all of the amazing purses that my students created from their own graffiti paintings-

***Spending time having fun with Ruth Rae...I love Ruth even the the bathroom is fun with her!!!

***Listening to the haunted toilet flush in Seminar room

***Loved staying in a scaring but funky captains house!
***Meeting Lisa Engelbrecht- she is the sweetest and most talented rebel calligrapher!!!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

ArtFiberFEst Part 1


I am still traveling and made it back to Oregon with a happy heart!! Though I am tired from all of the activity- I am so inspired and energized by my time in Port Townsend with so many wonderful people! I am preparing a LONG post about my experience teaching and all kinds of shout outs to all of the amazing people that I met but it will have to wait until tomorrow because I only got 3hours of sleep last night and my brain is fuzzy!! Stay tuned for more!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Made It!

So I made it to Port Townsend and I must say that I am in much better spirits since my last post! Things are feeling better and I am exited to be at ArtFiberFest and to be in the Pacific Northwest- my old stomping grounds. I made it here this afternoon with time to do some exploring and picture taking! Now it is off to our kick off meeting!!! More to come!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Relief!!

I am officially prepared for teaching at ArtFiberFest (well almost) my problem is that I am never finished doing anything- it's kinda a problem!  But I am finally feeling relief and have so much fun stuff for vendor night including hand painted fabric with lots and lots of splatter! 

Thankfully I have started to catch up with other creative projects and have finally updated my esty shop with all kinds of new goodies including one of my favorites- 

Saturday, October 11, 2008

A Glimpse

Just a glimpse into my morning...still working, creating, painting, gathering stuff for teaching, preparing for holiday sales, trying to be productive as possible - all while holding onto gratitude for the many amazing things that I have to be thankful for. More to come!

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